Emotional Subject

As some of you may or may not know, Jason and I have been trying to start a family for over 2 years. Though I do still believe that God will let us have a baby when we are good and ready for it, the process doesn't get any less frustrating. In October of 2008 I was diagnosed with PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome). Though women with PCOS can have children, it can often become difficult. All my life I've battled with my weight, my acne, and my health in general. I'd been to doctors all over Michigan trying to discern what the problem could be. And in 2008, by chance, my Doctor finally figured it out. I was informed that I basically looked and had the profile of a woman with PCOS. Irregular cycles, being active but carrying a lot of weight around the middle, adult acne, etc. The clincher was when they drew blood to test my hormone levels and they were pretty much non-existent. My doctor but me on a medicine called Metformin that regulates insulin levels which in turn regulates hormone levels which in turn regulates cycles. She also wanted me to lose about 40lbs and at that point she would send me to a fertility specialist. This new medicine took some getting used. Just ask Jason, I couldn't control any of my emotions for the first couple months and looked basically acted like a crazy person. I medication worked and my cycles were soon on track. Weight was slowly coming off and we really hoped that soon we would have one on a way. Flash forward to October 2010. I've been on metformin for 2 years and still no baby. I moved to Lansing and that was the first time I went to see a fertility specialist. Dr. Leach confirmed my PCOS, deemed me healthy enough to carry a child, and had no reason not to believe that we could easily achieve this with the right medication. He started me on Clomid which is a drug that will stimulate ovulation. We did 3 cycles of it, and though I ovulated, Still no baby. Our hopes were so high during those 3 months. Every month we thought that would be it but then my cycle would start again and we'd be devastated. At this time I continued on my weight loss journey, went in for another consultation with Dr. Leech, and continued our prayers. Since I had last seen Dr. Leech in October I had lost about 20lbs. This is very encouraging for an overweight woman who is trying to get pregnant. And instead of going to the next step of medications and artificial insemination (SCARY complications might I add) we decided that I would continue to lose weight, and after 3 months, do another round of Clomid. And that is where we are right now. From the time I was diagnosed with PCOS in October of 2008 I have lost approximately 40lbs. And the majority of that has been in the last 3 months. Jason and I are still hopeful that we can become pregnant the old fashioned way and that one day God will bless us with a baby. I mean we have 3 dog babies, of course, but they're dependent on my for their entire lives, children eventually leave the nest! :) Well that's it. We're off to Florida on Wednesday to celebrate Dad's 60th birthday. Mark, Jaime, Jason and I are all flying down to spend some time with Mom and Dad at their new house in their old people's park. Those old folks won't know what hit them!